A journey through female depression


I blame the hormones is a memoir of my experience with hormonal depression. Once I had started to write the book I decided to concentrate on my history and the beginnings of my illness. It begins with my sudden change in personality and the slow realisation that I wasn't the same as my peers. As the years went by, I became more despondent and suffered from low self-esteem and would often feel very alone and intensely sad. I struggled to understand my very powerful mood swings and would often drink alcohol to calm my nerves or deal with the episodes of lengthy sobbing which would often come out of nowhere and for no particular reason. The book tells of my repeated and often fruitless visits to various doctors who could offer no explanation to the mental and sometimes physical symptoms I was experiencing. The subsequent chapters tell of the gradual despair I was feeling, especially after the birth of my first son and particularly after the birth of my middle child where I experienced my first psychosis. It also gives my reasons for researching the condition and the endless quest to find a cure as the illness didn't respond to conventional treatments. Gradually, it explains my underlying hunch that it was hormonal in origin and not a mental illness as was once diagnosed. The second part of the book gives a detailed description of each part of the condition including Pre-menstrual Syndrome, Postnatal Illness and the link between the two illnesses. It explains why and how this disorder comes about and the reasons I found for them. It also gives the essential and vital cures and the reason I chose to have a Hysterectomy even though that may seem radical. It gives a detailed explanation of the types of therapies one can use and the various medicines whether they be hormonal, homeopathic or psychiatric. It gives a thorough guide to understanding the condition and the various help and support available. The book has been designed so that we may understand hormonal disorders and the subsequent effect on womens mental health, whether the reader is in the medical profession, or a sufferer. It has also been written in the hope that it will prevent more suicides, which can be a result of this devastating and sometimes fatal illness.